28.6.10

Reunited

Out of the blue, Sam called me last Monday and asked me how I was. After a short chit chat, we decided it was time for a reunion, for the four of us at least. (Should be five if Fer were here.)

After eight years since we graduated from high school, nothing much has changed. Well, the topics shared were a little bit more profound, but the comfortable atmosphere was still the same. I would never get tired of our kwentuhans and kulitans.



Hope our plans for our birthday push through. oh and Bevs’ wedding too… soon… haha!

April's Day in June


The first to wed in our discipleship group - April.

As I watched the ceremony, I can't help but imagine who would be next. I guess it really doesn't matter who marries first, what's important is that we marry the right person. (or maybe determine if we're cut out for single blessedness.=p)



Anyway, when I was preparing for the wedding my friend said, "Pipintasan mo nanaman yan for sure." And I thought I would. I have this fascination about weddings. I have this notion that weddings should be perfectly planned. But on the contrary, I found April's wedding nice. The church was beautiful, April was blooming, and the venue for the reception was pleasant. Food was great too. haha. Sure, the wedding was not perfect but I guess when it's a friend who is getting married I tend to focus less on the minors. Instead, my attention is drawn to the person I value.



April's wedding marks the start of many more weddings to come. This is the start of a new era. And I'm getting a bit giddy. Who's next? =)




Ouch

My jaws are clenched hard as I try to bite on two pieces of cotton rolls. I just had my first extraction. In simpler terms, nagpabunot ako.


It has been one boring week after another. When classes started, practice has been slow. Fewer patients have been coming in. My sister and I spent the first two clinic hours trying to busy ourselves. She browsed the TV channels on an endless loop and I pretended to review for the board exams. I had a mirror in front of me and I noticed how the misalignment of my teeth has relapsed since I had my braces removed. My two front teeth were not even in the same plane, di sila pantay. So I said to my sister, “Kabitan mo na lang ako ng brackets.” She then asked me to show her my teeth and she said, “Bunutin muna natin third molars mo.”

I have never experienced having a tooth extracted. I have done the procedure several times before but having it done to myself was quite scary.

(Real time update: The anesthesia is starting to wear off. I’m starting to feel the pain.)

I lay on the dental chair with my hands clenched together. The first step is to put topical anesthesia so that the patient would not feel the needle prick. My sister swabbed the area with a generous amount of the anesthetic. I never realized how awful it tasted until I experienced it for myself. Ugh. I gagged as the bitter stuff trickled down my throat. After that my sister loaded up the syringe (injection) and aimed for my palate (ngala-ngala). In theory, I know that it was more painful to anesthetize the palate than any other area in the mouth. So I took a deep breath and braced myself. I felt the needle pierce my palate and afterwards I felt a creeping sting spreading throughout the area. It was sharp and painful. Slowly, the area became numb. It felt like it was swollen. My sister then took another dental instrument in her hand and started to “loosen” the tooth from its bone socket. I was so accustomed to doing that procedure. I remember feeling excited as I would carefully but firmly exert pressure against the tooth and the bone. I remember feeling exhilarated when I see the tooth moving. Today, as my sister “loosened” my tooth, I felt every pressure exerted. I was anxious as I felt the instrument working through my tooth and the bone surrounding it. I felt dull pain but it was tolerable. So I clenched my fists, as I so often see my patients do, and I endured the anxiousness and the pain.

(Real time update: Dull pain.. no… sharp pain.. ugh.. I’m not really sure but it effing hurts.)

After the procedure, I had to bite down on pieces of cotton to help control the bleeding. My mouth was numb and I feel I could gag any moment. My mouth was full of cotton and blood and saliva were slowly pooling inside my mouth. I hate the taste and smell of blood.

Extractions would never be the same for me now. Experiencing both sides of the fence, I think I’d be more sensitive to the patient’s needs next time I had to extract his tooth. Dental procedures, in theory, are a series of careful steps to follow. In reality, there’s so much more than just step one, step two, step three.



Ouch.

16.6.10

Meredith Says

I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when you've crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming, and I don't know how you fit it on a map. You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. And as for rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself.

15.6.10

Bittersweet; Leaving UPCD

After a graduation and a change of heart.. After shedding lots of tears and experiencing bouts of joy.. After major decisions were made… and after I had been changed… I’m back to blogging.


I can’t even start to say how much has happened since I last blogged. But before I even start let me just say that I am terribly sorry for even attempting the 365 project. Silly of me to think I could manage posting a picture a day. For the most part, I blame school for my failure. Anyway…

For the past months I had been busy with the final leg of my clinical requirements in school. Up until March I have had my nose buried in other people’s mouth (haha) trying to finish the remaining requirements I needed to graduate. The last weeks in school were incredulously tiring. I had to face one practical exam after the other. Imagine my anxiety level during those times, but after all those grueling days in school, after 8 effing years in UP, I finally graduated last April.


It was bittersweet to be leaving UP. I have walked the halls of my college for almost a decade. The blare of Taft avenue traffic chiming in with the LRT’s loud clatter will resound in my ears for as long as I shall live. UPCD, for the earlier part of my college life, had been a place for torture for me. I dreaded Mondays and every single day I had to go to school. But as the years piled on, UPCD has become much like home. I remember feeling all cheered up as I would enter the lobby and see “Ate Guard”. It felt homey to see my professors and my friends. It was always so relaxing to just hang out at the OP Laboratory and chismis our afternoons away. Haaay… bittersweet indeed. As I leave UPCD, I’m taking every thread of knowledge I acquired, every inch of wisdom that helped shape my character, and every ounce of joy I shared with the greatest people. With great sincerity I say, I love UPCD.

After graduation, I did what any sane individual would do, I had fun! Haha. My family and I went to Baguio and to Bohol. I also bought a DSLR and enrolled myself in a Basic Photography Class. Hmm…. I’ll be writing about photography in another post.




I can’t believe I’m writing again. I love the feeling when you’re typing and your fingers can’t keep up with your mind.

I’m back! =)