Way Off Balance

I got sick this week. At first I thought it was just because I ate lunch late, but as I was cringing because of the pain in my tummy, I figured it couldn't be just because of hunger. The stomachache worsened and later that night I was running a fever. I could hardly move a muscle.

Just this morning as I was telling my patient of my ordeal last Wednesday, he told me, "Baka naman na-oover fatigue ka na." I could have laughed that very minute. I don't think I could have been that tired to be sick. The amount of school work I was doing wasn't enough to have caused fatigue. But as I was trying hard not to laugh at his remark, I started to recount what I had been doing that week.

I was up until 2 in the morning the night before, spent the whole morning cleaning the condo, hardly had any lunch, went to the mall to watch a movie, went home, got sick.

Ok. So maybe I was a bit tired. And I just realized that I was tired not because of the things that I needed to do, like maybe finish the pustiso I have been doing, but I was tired because of things that were a bit unnecessary. (Cleaning is a must though, being OC is not.)

I have always heard it being said that one has to strike a balance between work and fun. But how do you actually do that when having fun requires energy as well? haha! Am I being silly? I just think that there's always too little time to do all the things you want to do, be with people you want to be with.

Take for example my habit of not getting enough sleep. I have always been alright with not getting enough sleep. If I slept at around 3am studying, I could still get up at 6am. I don't feel the difference between a 4 hour sleep and an 8 hour sleep. (I do get bothered by eye bags and pimples kaya I make an effort to at least get 7-8 hours of eye shut.) And maybe the reason behind this habit is I feel there's more that would be accomplished when I'm awake. Sleeping doesn't cross out an item in my overwhelmingly long to - do list.

I'm beginning to sound like an overly obsessed workaholic. I am NOT.

I have to stop spreading myself way too thin. I know I have to live out a healthier life style.
Now, if I could just start....